Everything i do, is a mistake..
Seriously i just want disappear from this world..
I just want to do things that i like..
Things that make me happy..
It had been a long time since i was really happy..
Is it because of the age?
Why when i grow older, i am getting more unhappiness than happiness??
I wish time would just turn back.. and make me remain as a child..
I dont my lifestyle at all..
Clubbing, pub, drinking, smoking, gangster, fighting, doing those stupid things
Just making me hate myself..



I wish that the case will charge me with provision..
So that i will repent with what seriously am i doing..
I seriously just feel disappointed with myself..



Is the end of the world in my mind..
Then you voice pull me back like a wake up call..
Because you make believe in myself
when nobody else can help..
Because you live, I live..
But now where you go? why you just left me like this?
Where are you when i need you now..??
Where??
Why must you go?

O's is just days away..
But i havent even prepare..
I know that i need to do well, but i cant just find that concentration to study..
I seriously start to hate myself..
I dont know what i want...
Aimless and helpless.
I really dont want to disappoint my parents.. But i think is already too late...
I will try study as much as possible..
But still i think i can make it to poly..

I Almost Told You that I Loved You..

Yesterday went to tpy to eat..
drink a bit..
actually quite alot..
went to tiong after eating....
with shimin and charlene and another two friends...
they do stupid things there..
In the end, me and jesmond cab home..
Tonight is the fun night..
Get invited to ktv..
Nt sure going chalet pty a not..
.........

Yesterday was a bit boring at st james...
After the event, went to harborfront centre to slack..
In the end, another 11person want to geylang to eat..
So in the end we took 3cab down.. and eat then play lan..
Then cab home..
Going out soon..
Trm still got hee kent and chalet pty to attend..

On Friday.. Went out with my parents to Jp..
It was kinda of fun actually...
Went to eat pizza.. After that, went to watch movie..
After that jian yang and jesmond came over....
So went with jesmond to that crappy girl...
Blahhh Blahhh....
Then went to find alvin..
Get police screen..Zzz..
Then buy cigg, Slack Slack.. go play billiard...
Then wait for NR5..Then go home..




Yesterday, went to jp..
Then went to jp library.. and eat prata..
after that suppose to play pool... but in the end didnt went..
Lynette and some others came to jp to look for us awhile..
then we went to gek po, to play ball with terrance..
NO picts taken.. lazy..

Yesterday was fun.. even though it is not well planned.
Went to jurong point around 3plus..
Bought a bottle of vodka to drink as wei lun want it too..
In the end, wei lun was some sort of drunk..
We went safra to play lan.. let wei lun rest there too..
After that went to take bus to chinese garden.. sit 346 and wait for nollee sandy and joyce to come..
Drink two botttle of Heineken...
Went to canal to play..
Bought lightstick..
actually was suppose to meet angelia..
But in the end she dua me..
But nvm, still meet up with her sister in the end..
Slack Slack.. then cab-ed home....
Today should stay at home..
:)

Super boring ahhh..
Yesterday hee kent say he toning at redhill, then i ask him to call me..
In the end, he didnt call at all..
Now waiting for all those dota freaks to wake up...
planing go to Jurong point,
Or maybe to Chinese garden after that, to play lantern...
I want to drink starbucks later.........................
I go sleep first.. Damn tired..

Hais trm dont need go school...
Go clementi police station to release bail..
Wish i wont be charged again..
Zzz.. this kind of thing is super boring..
Meeting up with jesmond and others..
Today went to irc with heekent, to play lan until 1030am..
Then eat at mac..
then cab to school..To show face..
Zzz..
All the way till 230..
Zzz.. then soccer in school... then go aye to play again..
then home..
I promised myself i going to study after this week... 100%%%%%
I gtg smoke.. bye and nights for now..



It has been 28 day since i last saw her at jurong point..