But if i dont post now, i really will die inside..
I'm really lose and confused.. I dont know how my life will carry on..
I'm really tired of life, I just want go somewhere far far away, detach all contacts with reality..
My parents rather not pay a 3k to guarantee a place in a school for as they scare i will breach my probation.. Wtf, cant they just understand if the place is not guarantee, and if my court end up quite well, and i cant go and study again, what is the fucking point..
3k for my future?? i Think is worth it, while they think is not.. I hate them, all they care is about what they thinking.. They will never want to try understand my situation...
Fuck this world, nobody understand me no more!! And this concept in my brain wont change..
The only person will understand and love and care about me already went somewhere far far away..
Beloved aunty where are you? i really need you, I'm Lost.. I need your guidence..
I really miss you a lot..
How i wish you are still me but you leave me all alone..
I need to talk to you.. Should I come find you? I really feel like it..
I already got the sense of myself leaving..
There is no more goals and no more dreams, I just dont want pursue no more..
My dreams have died..
I will come find you soon.. 24/6/2010.... 2A.M
Ting Jun, I'm so disappointed when you think that i a bad boyfriend.. Ya maybe yes i'am..
And is time for me to leave you everybody else.. Dont be upset.. Just take it i go vacation.
Yes I'am irresponsible guy..
I'm sorry to everyone.. My beloved brother jesmond , Don't be upset.. Strive for your dreams..
And so my other brothers, do your best for everything.. i give you all my blessings... Ah hwi, thanks for all love you gave me, without you, I will be a miserable kid..
Thanks..
My parents, thanks
Brother and Sister , I love you guys..
Grandparent, i really appreacite what you do for me..
I going for a forever vacation
