Since long i post..

But if i dont post now, i really will die inside..

I'm really lose and confused.. I dont know how my life will carry on..

I'm really tired of life, I just want go somewhere far far away, detach all contacts with reality..

My parents rather not pay a 3k to guarantee a place in a school for as they scare i will breach my probation.. Wtf, cant they just understand if the place is not guarantee, and if my court end up quite well, and i cant go and study again, what is the fucking point..

3k for my future?? i Think is worth it, while they think is not.. I hate them, all they care is about what they thinking.. They will never want to try understand my situation...

Fuck this world, nobody understand me no more!! And this concept in my brain wont change..

The only person will understand and love and care about me already went somewhere far far away..

Beloved aunty where are you? i really need you, I'm Lost.. I need your guidence..

I really miss you a lot..

How i wish you are still me but you leave me all alone..

I need to talk to you.. Should I come find you? I really feel like it..

I already got the sense of myself leaving..

There is no more goals and no more dreams, I just dont want pursue no more..

My dreams have died..

I will come find you soon.. 24/6/2010.... 2A.M

Ting Jun, I'm so disappointed when you think that i a bad boyfriend.. Ya maybe yes i'am..

And is time for me to leave you everybody else.. Dont be upset.. Just take it i go vacation.

Yes I'am irresponsible guy..

I'm sorry to everyone.. My beloved brother jesmond , Don't be upset.. Strive for your dreams..

And so my other brothers, do your best for everything.. i give you all my blessings... Ah hwi, thanks for all love you gave me, without you, I will be a miserable kid..

Thanks..

My parents, thanks

Brother and Sister , I love you guys..

Grandparent, i really appreacite what you do for me..

I going for a forever vacation

I don't know how or why or when

I ended up in this position I'm in

I starting to feel distant againI'm just so fucking depressed

I just can seem to get out this slump

If I could just get over this hump

But I need something to pull me out this dump

I took my bruises took my lumpsLately I've been hard to reach

I've been too long on my own

Everybody has a private world

Where they can be alone

Are you calling me are you trying to get through

Are you reaching out for me I'm reaching out for you..Lately I've been hard to reach

I've been too long on my own

Everybody has a private world

Where they can be alone

Are you calling me are you trying to get through

Are you reaching out for me I'm reaching out for you..

We’ve run out of words we’ve run out of time
We’ve run out of reasons really why we together
We both know it’s over baby bottom line
It’s best we don’t even talk at all
Cause I’m not coming back I’m closing the door
I used to be trippin’ over missin’ you but I’m not any more
I got the picture phone but baby your picture’s gone
Couldn’t stand to see your smile every time you dialed
Cause it’s over
Girl you know it’s over this time
So when you call I’m pressin’ seven
Don’t wanna hear your messages messages
I’m tryna erase you from my mind..

I always been a mistake, from the day it starts..
It shouldnt end this way..
If i know that this would happen, I wont even want to start..
I should never have believe in love..
It is over now..
Why cant u change, while i can..
Hope u dont regret..

Why cant u believe in me..
I really just want to be with u for the rest of my life..
Is just that u dont believe

I here to post.. as ppl complain say i never post..
So ya..
Recently everything is bad..
Lost 400 dollars soccer..
no money..
no gf..
no school...
no ways..
LOST..
So ya,, that all..
Bye

Christmas has passs..
Is nt as fun as last year..
Is kinda boring..
results cming 11 jan..
and i going to start mia soon

I awake still at 3am in the morning..
Listening to a song that reminds me of my beloved aunty.
I seriously miss her alot..
I just feel like following her..
Where do ppl go after they die..
Please allow me follow..




And to my baby gal:
I seriously really love u alot..
I want u to do the same for me..
I dont want any secrets along us..
I want to be truthful to u and u do back the same to me..
I dont know how say when i really face to face with u..
Please understand how i feel..
Lets us cherish each other before is too late..
I mean what i say.. I want to be with u..
I want u trust me...

Now we're caught in a circle
A constant battle
The day that u hurt me
The clouds cast a shadow on us
And I hope that ur happy we're even now, so cry baby cry
Before the love just turns to hate
Before I ask for u to stay
And just before u walk away
What is this, what happens to relationships, started off so good and ended up so bad baby I just wanna know..