It's So Wrong But It's Real

Love Suicide (Last Entry)

2010-06-21T08:38:00.000-07:00

I'm So Sorry for causing you so much disturbance and freedom..

I was looking for love, somebody to trust, thought you was the one..

This is your choice and your decision, and is you the one that agree that ending of somebody might bring a better life to others.. I will respect your decision.. I will do you this one last request, and it will be my last..

You say that things don't last forever, I agreed now, Cause me is ending now..

I gave you my love,

I gave you my world,

I gave all of me,

If you want the stars, I will find way to give to you..

If you want my heart, i will dig it out for you..

You are the reason why I'm living..

It feels so different being here without you, Life for me is not same anymore..

Starting over seems so hard, Seems like everywhere I go, I think of you..

How do I breathe without you by myself,

How do I see, when your love bought me to the light..

I'm losing my mind, Thought that you would be mine, Guess the joke was on me..

I miss you so bad till I can't sleep..

Now you choose your freedom and friends over me even though I only got 2days with you..

I'm Devastated, Is pointless to live if I know that I can't see you no more..

I'm always the extra one disturbing your life, then I will do you your request..

I will disappear from your life, I just don't understand why you want to treat me this way as if I am worthless, yes, maybe I am really Worthless to you, Maybe this is better for you so that you won't get depressed if i go away to another world..

I thought of accompany you this few days that I left, and I thought you might want it too, as time is running out.. I guessed I was wrong, you want just spend all the time you have with your friends.. I got it the wrong way.. I actually really want to run with you to somewhere else to live our life, but i know that I'm not the one that you want to spend you life with..

It will shattered me now, as I really love you, thought you was the one, But now I feeling so much pain that I cannot stand it anymore.. My life source is gone, I'm gone..

I really enjoy those time I spend with you for the 6month 22 days 1hour 52mins 14seconds...

Those happy memories will brighten up my life.. It really do..

Now I will do you a last thing..

I give you my life.. After that you can do whatever you want and accompany your friend..

Take Care of yourself..

I really miss you a lot..

And I love you till my heartbreaks..

Bye my sweetheart and lover..

You will always be my baby, and the one that I love the most..

Please don't be sad, Be happy, that all I want from you..

Love Suicide, JasonKongYingJIe Love yeotingjun

Wish to see you again my next life..

<3<3<3

RIP 22/6/2010 12.30am.

Suicide.

2010-05-31T07:34:00.000-07:00

Since long i post..

But if i dont post now, i really will die inside..

I'm really lose and confused.. I dont know how my life will carry on..

I'm really tired of life, I just want go somewhere far far away, detach all contacts with reality..

My parents rather not pay a 3k to guarantee a place in a school for as they scare i will breach my probation.. Wtf, cant they just understand if the place is not guarantee, and if my court end up quite well, and i cant go and study again, what is the fucking point..

3k for my future?? i Think is worth it, while they think is not.. I hate them, all they care is about what they thinking.. They will never want to try understand my situation...

Fuck this world, nobody understand me no more!! And this concept in my brain wont change..

The only person will understand and love and care about me already went somewhere far far away..

Beloved aunty where are you? i really need you, I'm Lost.. I need your guidence..

I really miss you a lot..

How i wish you are still me but you leave me all alone..

I need to talk to you.. Should I come find you? I really feel like it..

I already got the sense of myself leaving..

There is no more goals and no more dreams, I just dont want pursue no more..

My dreams have died..

I will come find you soon.. 24/6/2010.... 2A.M

Ting Jun, I'm so disappointed when you think that i a bad boyfriend.. Ya maybe yes i'am..

And is time for me to leave you everybody else.. Dont be upset.. Just take it i go vacation.

Yes I'am irresponsible guy..

I'm sorry to everyone.. My beloved brother jesmond , Don't be upset.. Strive for your dreams..

And so my other brothers, do your best for everything.. i give you all my blessings... Ah hwi, thanks for all love you gave me, without you, I will be a miserable kid..

Thanks..

My parents, thanks

Brother and Sister , I love you guys..

Grandparent, i really appreacite what you do for me..

I going for a forever vacation

2010-04-12T03:59:00.000-07:00

I don't know how or why or when

I ended up in this position I'm in

I starting to feel distant againI'm just so fucking depressed

I just can seem to get out this slump

If I could just get over this hump

But I need something to pull me out this dump

I took my bruises took my lumpsLately I've been hard to reach

I've been too long on my own

Everybody has a private world

Where they can be alone

Are you calling me are you trying to get through

Are you reaching out for me I'm reaching out for you..Lately I've been hard to reach

I've been too long on my own

Everybody has a private world

Where they can be alone

Are you calling me are you trying to get through

Are you reaching out for me I'm reaching out for you..

2010-01-29T04:52:00.000-08:00

We’ve run out of words we’ve run out of time
We’ve run out of reasons really why we together
We both know it’s over baby bottom line
It’s best we don’t even talk at all
Cause I’m not coming back I’m closing the door
I used to be trippin’ over missin’ you but I’m not any more
I got the picture phone but baby your picture’s gone
Couldn’t stand to see your smile every time you dialed
Cause it’s over
Girl you know it’s over this time
So when you call I’m pressin’ seven
Don’t wanna hear your messages messages
I’m tryna erase you from my mind..

I always been a mistake, from the day it starts..
It shouldnt end this way..
If i know that this would happen, I wont even want to start..
I should never have believe in love..
It is over now..
Why cant u change, while i can..
Hope u dont regret..

Why cant u believe in me..
I really just want to be with u for the rest of my life..
Is just that u dont believe

2010-01-28T06:25:00.001-08:00

I here to post.. as ppl complain say i never post..
So ya..
Recently everything is bad..
Lost 400 dollars soccer..
no money..
no gf..
no school...
no ways..
LOST..
So ya,, that all..
Bye

2009-12-25T20:43:00.000-08:00

Christmas has passs..
Is nt as fun as last year..
Is kinda boring..
results cming 11 jan..
and i going to start mia soon

2009-12-19T11:10:00.000-08:00

I awake still at 3am in the morning..
Listening to a song that reminds me of my beloved aunty.
I seriously miss her alot..
I just feel like following her..
Where do ppl go after they die..
Please allow me follow..

And to my baby gal:
I seriously really love u alot..
I want u to do the same for me..
I dont want any secrets along us..
I want to be truthful to u and u do back the same to me..
I dont know how say when i really face to face with u..
Please understand how i feel..
Lets us cherish each other before is too late..
I mean what i say.. I want to be with u..
I want u trust me...

2009-12-18T01:16:00.000-08:00

Now we're caught in a circle
A constant battle
The day that u hurt me
The clouds cast a shadow on us
And I hope that ur happy we're even now, so cry baby cry
Before the love just turns to hate
Before I ask for u to stay
And just before u walk away
What is this, what happens to relationships, started off so good and ended up so bad baby I just wanna know..

2009-12-12T21:29:00.000-08:00

My dad came back..

WE start doing a lot of things together...

This is something i miss the most:

I AM GOING TO DIE

2009-12-08T22:28:00.001-08:00

I already from today onwards i going mia..
I think the only person i will meet is only jesmond..
So sorry..
I maybe mia till chalet then come back out..
Soo.. Jesmond is also going to mia soon..
I will meet other friends and brothers at the chalet..
U all just to have wait till then..
Is around 1week plus..

I really dont have feel to meet her..
Meet also argue... and i dont like that..
I already dont have the need to meet her.. So just let it be this way..
She also think that it is perfectly ok, She likes it this way so can meet friends..
Told you before that i dont need u, if u dont need me..
I will be gone faster, as time pass like this..
But i think You will be ok with it

BYEBYE PEOPLE
BYEBYE PEOPLE
BYEBYE PEOPLE

2009-12-07T22:48:00.000-08:00

Been driving around with dad..
So fun..
hahhahs..
Whooot...
I going mia soon.... I dont need any new excitement liao..
I just want the car..
Today maybe buying a new phone...
And maybe changing house again z.z...
Tonight is butterfactory..
Probably not going..
getting so boring...

2009-12-05T01:24:00.000-08:00

Damn tiredd.. Just reach home.. yesterday night went to find girlfriend..
Then she call me get lostt because of friend.. thenn lols..
hais nvmm.. Went home at around 5am.. and changed.....
Candis come pick me up.. lolss..
Wtf gal pick up boy..
hahahhas.... then to eat.. and went to her house and stayed..
And slept very well...
She called me to stayed another few days.........
So maybe i going to ton at her house for another few nights barh...
Byes. I go bath liao..

2009-11-30T10:04:00.000-08:00

Now is around 2am..
Just reach home frm safra..
Zz...
Went to find sarah at her place..
Slacked with her till 8 like that...
the cab to jp find jesmond and gang...
Eat mac..
Lan..
How boring.. Trm they working again..
Should be going malaysia with chinwee...
Not sure yet..
Going chalet soon..
and next week onwards is my turn to mia..
I will gone for sometime till around Xmas..
Need to find some money to finish my tattoo..
Finding wei nan soon..

I never wanted to argue or show attitude...
All i wanted is more time with you...
Is that too much to ask for?

2009-11-29T21:25:00.001-08:00

Just wake up, yesterday went to kenneth hideout which is boat quay..
Went there to drink...
Whooo.. Fun..
At last start to choing...
She went off at the wrong time lor..
Hais..
Too bad.. Cannot blame me, is u never pei me..
Going drink again i think..
yesterday billy open 7jug..then we high then shuffle with a indian...
Wild...
Restoring my normal life..
Ltr going to watch movie..
Chalet is coming..
Is time to have fun...

I BEEN LISTENING FOR THIS CHINESE SONG FOR 7HOURS..
MOTHERFUCKER

2009-11-28T10:02:00.000-08:00

Went to meet my brothers again..
Zzz..
Went to church and find her, but she like dont even care..i'm like so fking auto liao lor..
Hais..
Went safra, lan pool..
Then she dua me.. I was so angry that i puch the pipe and the thing come out from the wall..
My hand skin tear..
Zzz..
But realise i must be more understanding...
Then chillll....

Please dont take it for granted, when i care abt u more..
Better start to cherish, or i will be gone before u know it..
Addiction will fade, so as everything else..
I dont know why is she treating me like this, is two different person when first met..
I'm not your ordinary boyfriend that always cry for u..
I can choose to care or dont..
And now i choose to care, so please dont destroy my promise towards you..
And i really want you.. Not playing with you..
Dont make me start playing.. Please this the only thing i want from you..

2009-11-28T01:13:00.000-08:00

Alright now i'm still at home.. waiting for jesmond to come back jp..
yesterday went to terrance house play and slack..
after that went to find some ppl.. which i regret meeting..
But nvm, yesterday it makes it more clear, that i dont even want to care..
Anyway..i wondering what drinks should i buy to the chalet..
Chivas or Vodka, So confusing..
It should be quite fun.. Wf say alot of gals gals..ite leh...
Lols..
Alright, i going meet azinger liao..
Cya bitches.

2009-11-26T21:00:00.001-08:00

Quite long since i blog..
'm super tired.. but i just suffer from insomia..
I been staying at home for quite some time..
And at last finally today i know what i should do..
Omg this is so not me, but after today i going to return to what i really am..
Alright, i dont really care whether we are together..
Better leave me, before u reallly need me...
I going out liao..
Go get all my clothes to the new house..
Trm is officially date to go out with brothers..
I think i going find ah hwi trm..
And wei nan, Chill man, is just a girl... Dont so serious.. Dont be upset..
I will always be there for you..
Not gay la..
Take care all my brothers..
Is Time to hae fun..
Chalet next week. Interested call me..
Girls are welcome;)

If you think i'm just a normal guy.. U are wrong...
Please dont think that i need you,
I used survive myself.. I dont need anybody.. If that person dont needs me..
All i want is just my aunty and brothers..
But my aunty is gone, all i left is my brother..
Jesmond, we been through alot of rubbish together..
Girls will go..
Brothers will be stay..
This is our brotherhood.. Fearless, when we stand as one..
We ride together, we die together..
Brothers 4 life..

2009-11-10T00:46:00.001-08:00

Whoo. Since a long time i blog man!..
Os going to finish in 2 days time...
Yeah..
Alright, There's alot of plans..
Jesmond' s birthday..
Terrance Birthday..
Azinger Birthday..

I being hanging out with wei nan this few days..
Doing stupid stuff..
At queensway..
Tattoo Shop at second storey at the mac staircase.
Anybody wants to do tattoo and piercing.. Go there..

Let start enjoying and do whatever you like..

2009-10-28T11:27:00.000-07:00

Everything i do, is a mistake..
Seriously i just want disappear from this world..
I just want to do things that i like..
Things that make me happy..
It had been a long time since i was really happy..
Is it because of the age?
Why when i grow older, i am getting more unhappiness than happiness??
I wish time would just turn back.. and make me remain as a child..
I dont my lifestyle at all..
Clubbing, pub, drinking, smoking, gangster, fighting, doing those stupid things
Just making me hate myself..

I wish that the case will charge me with provision..
So that i will repent with what seriously am i doing..
I seriously just feel disappointed with myself..

Is the end of the world in my mind..
Then you voice pull me back like a wake up call..
Because you make believe in myself
when nobody else can help..
Because you live, I live..
But now where you go? why you just left me like this?
Where are you when i need you now..??
Where??
Why must you go?

2009-10-24T14:03:00.000-07:00

O's is just days away..
But i havent even prepare..
I know that i need to do well, but i cant just find that concentration to study..
I seriously start to hate myself..
I dont know what i want...
Aimless and helpless.
I really dont want to disappoint my parents.. But i think is already too late...
I will try study as much as possible..
But still i think i can make it to poly..

2009-10-20T03:08:00.001-07:00

I Almost Told You that I Loved You..

2009-10-17T02:35:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to tpy to eat..
drink a bit..
actually quite alot..
went to tiong after eating....
with shimin and charlene and another two friends...
they do stupid things there..
In the end, me and jesmond cab home..
Tonight is the fun night..
Get invited to ktv..
Nt sure going chalet pty a not..
.........

2009-10-16T04:41:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a bit boring at st james...
After the event, went to harborfront centre to slack..
In the end, another 11person want to geylang to eat..
So in the end we took 3cab down.. and eat then play lan..
Then cab home..
Going out soon..
Trm still got hee kent and chalet pty to attend..

2009-10-10T22:00:00.000-07:00

On Friday.. Went out with my parents to Jp..
It was kinda of fun actually...
Went to eat pizza.. After that, went to watch movie..
After that jian yang and jesmond came over....
So went with jesmond to that crappy girl...
Blahhh Blahhh....
Then went to find alvin..
Get police screen..Zzz..
Then buy cigg, Slack Slack.. go play billiard...
Then wait for NR5..Then go home..

Yesterday, went to jp..
Then went to jp library.. and eat prata..
after that suppose to play pool... but in the end didnt went..
Lynette and some others came to jp to look for us awhile..
then we went to gek po, to play ball with terrance..
NO picts taken.. lazy..

2009-10-03T21:39:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was fun.. even though it is not well planned.
Went to jurong point around 3plus..
Bought a bottle of vodka to drink as wei lun want it too..
In the end, wei lun was some sort of drunk..
We went safra to play lan.. let wei lun rest there too..
After that went to take bus to chinese garden.. sit 346 and wait for nollee sandy and joyce to come..
Drink two botttle of Heineken...
Went to canal to play..
Bought lightstick..
actually was suppose to meet angelia..
But in the end she dua me..
But nvm, still meet up with her sister in the end..
Slack Slack.. then cab-ed home....
Today should stay at home..
:)

2009-10-02T21:21:00.000-07:00

Super boring ahhh..
Yesterday hee kent say he toning at redhill, then i ask him to call me..
In the end, he didnt call at all..
Now waiting for all those dota freaks to wake up...
planing go to Jurong point,
Or maybe to Chinese garden after that, to play lantern...
I want to drink starbucks later.........................
I go sleep first.. Damn tired..

2009-10-01T04:38:00.001-07:00

Hais trm dont need go school...
Go clementi police station to release bail..
Wish i wont be charged again..
Zzz.. this kind of thing is super boring..
Meeting up with jesmond and others..
Today went to irc with heekent, to play lan until 1030am..
Then eat at mac..
then cab to school..To show face..
Zzz..
All the way till 230..
Zzz.. then soccer in school... then go aye to play again..
then home..
I promised myself i going to study after this week... 100%%%%%
I gtg smoke.. bye and nights for now..

It has been 28 day since i last saw her at jurong point..

2009-09-30T03:02:00.000-07:00

Cause I Cant Breathe When You Talk To Me
I Suffocate When Your Away From Me
So Much Love You Take From Me
I'm Going Out Of My Mind
I Wonder If You Feel Me Watching You
Cause I Can't Go A Night Without Your Loving
Got Me Looking At This Phone
Everytime It Rings I Hope Its You...

Just want to write what i'm thinking now..

2009-09-29T05:23:00.000-07:00

I got back quite a lot of my results..
Most of them did serious badly..
Expected:)
But nvm, i already determined to study after this week...
But dont know with who..
I know that i going get at least 3 A's for O's
A's Smoker leh..
Lols.. Not only in smoking:)

Any smoking friend that want to study and smoke with me?
Gtg Go holland village for dinner:)

And no one knows
Why I'm into you
Cause you'll never know what its like to walk in my shoes

2009-09-28T04:34:00.000-07:00

Today was quite a tiring day..
Last friday chalet, was fun and i got wasted..
Finding that freaking area was tiring..
We took cab 3times then we found that chalet..
With midnight charge..
We bought Chivas and vodka..
Mc and me finish it within like like 15mins..
Then we went in to drink from the tower.
After that i cant remember a thing..
Waking up with quite a serious cut at my nose and hands..
My head was swollen too..
Zzz..
I'm now disfigured.. Must wear spects to cover my injuries..
I think i wont be going out with girls for couple of weeks...
Went play soccer today at aye,
Later on meet up with jesmond and others to play pool at rc..
Bus-ed to Je library, walk one round then.. bus-ed home..
Went to cut my long long tail.. Zzz..
Haiss.. Nvm O level coming.. Must cut.. I did what i promised my teachers:)

2009-09-25T02:15:00.000-07:00

Taken quite some time...
Lols.. Kyss Dont work at queenswa there liao...
Zzz..
Hardworking bro..
Miss Him..
Gotta go find him soon and finish off my stomach..
Bro dont be angry..

To All:Let's dont argue anymore.

I deleted my c-box..
Bo liao people everyday like that comment..
Zzz..
To:Hahaha: I never say i zai, You so proud of yourself bao ppl=.=Zzz
Good lor.. Bao more..

2009-09-24T08:53:00.001-07:00

Today chem paper, i didnt really understand..
I think this whole prelim, i will screw up..
But nvm, i know if i study i will get there..
Went to wei lun house after that, and play dota..
Hee kent and chinwee has give the statement already..
But tham didnt ask from me..
Crap sia..
I kinda messed up now..
I'm upset that i didnt stop johnny from fighting..
But glad to hear that he came out of the hospital already..
Seriously upon hearing that, i feel less guilty..
This few days i like suffering from insomnia for some reasons..
just came home after a bottle of alcohol and some smoking..
Seriously i feel really down..
But anyway everything will pass..
Trm going back school in the morning for the bio mcq..
Then pool.. Lols..
gtg, talking to shi min

2009-09-23T02:44:00.000-07:00

Just went home after physics paper.
Johnny still in hospital..
Is it my fault?
I already try stopping the fight..
Hope he will be fine...
I'm tired now..
I go and sleep now

2009-09-21T08:59:00.000-07:00

Today quarrel with grandparents..
So went out very early..
Went west coast to play pool with weilun,
then bus-ed to Jurong point.. And meet up with jian yang and the rest...
Went to safra to play lan..
Then went home..

2009-09-19T23:40:00.000-07:00

Now is around 3pm..
Lols.. Yesterday was a wild night.. Went to SUPPER CLUB yesterday for the 18 and above event..
Everything was wild..
Went with jianyang and wei lun..
Jesmond last min ps.
Wei lun went there for less then 1 hour then go home liao=.=!!
Reach there, brought vodka for 15dollars one shot!!..
Then party atw..
Know a new girl, name elanie.. Lols..
But she and another girl went home at 2plus..
Then we carry on all the way till 4..
Then we home together.
Gtg out with my cousins now..
Miss them.
Byes

2009-09-16T06:22:00.000-07:00

Something that i try to draw today..
Baby Girl..
Didnt go to mtl paper today..
Too lazy to get out of the bed..
Cab-ed to school around 10plus..
Then eat and wait for my friends to come out..
Went to play pool.
and back to school again for math paper..

Math paper 2 is a killer.
I got killed..
And now i wishing a pass for math..
Trm not going for ss paper..
So i can rest at home...
Friday i need to go clementi hq to extend bail again..
I'm sick and tired of it..

Lols..
Felt quite down today as i woke up in the middle of the night and saw a three letter reply..
Zzz.. after that i dont even bother sms anymore.

2009-09-15T06:47:00.000-07:00

I'm super tired now..
English paper start at 230pm until around 5plus..
During that period, i'm super bored ahh..
Went to play pool at rc..
Then bus-ed home..
Jianyang call me to go supper club this saturday...
Should i go?
Okok..
i'm going to sleep now..

2009-09-12T09:53:00.000-07:00

Woke up at around 2pm.. Lols..
Watch spiderman 3 until around 4 plus..
Then blast music, trying to relieve stress..
Wei lun came to my house the bus-stop and we took bus to Plaza Sin..
Eat mac, waiting for jianyang and jesmond..
Went to play lan opposite parklane..
walk to orchard plaza for pool...
Actually wanted to go the ktv but think again, better not!!
Play till 11 plus, bused home with wei lun...
Adelaide tell me she studying at wcp then now ask me whether want to down there and drink!!!
Let's decide later..
I'm tired and hungry..
Arhhh!!..
Trm going to study at home..
HOPEFULLY!

Just ordered mac delivery..
30mins to feast time.

2009-09-11T09:01:00.000-07:00

Weilun.. lols
Act cool.
Look like idiot

Sheesha.. Was fun.. Lols..
There is so many photos..
Upload some other time..
Went to bugis, after that jiahui and caiying come find me..
Lols..
Didnt went home yesterday..
I'm freaking tired//

2009-09-08T09:15:00.000-07:00

Just reach home..
This few days, i keep on blogging..
Too many things inside my mind, and i wish that by writing it out, i will feel better..
My family dont trust me..
Only wish that my aunty still alive, so that i can talk to her..
Only she trust me..

But nvm, trm i will be going out
With few Gals and Jesmond they all..
I think it will be fun..
I will be sleeping now..

Didnt went to st james today,
Shi min ask me whether want to go, but in the end
too tired.

2009-09-07T06:32:00.000-07:00

Lols.. Taken a few days back..
The effect is nice..
hahhas..
Trm meeting them to play pool again..
SianzzZ..
Need to find a stead for the holiday..
O's coming.. but i got so many things to take care of..

I gotta to say.. Thank U to jian yang for taking blame for me...
Thanks alot..
Owe u one

2009-09-06T18:59:00.000-07:00

I get into case again..
Yesterday lockdown at remand for 12hours..
Zzz..
Just reach home.. I am very tired..
I been thinking, how many case can i get..
Zzz... It have been only a month plus. then i got another case..
Congratz i got 3case now..
Wtfffff....

Inside the remand, i know some new friends..
Lols.. I been talking to opposite cellmates..
Am i Crazy?..
Not planning to sleep liao..
Later go play pool...
Relieve stress..

And guess what, i just smoke infront of my parents..
i am so then upset..
12hours inside, but i not scare at all..
But free time makes me think about her..
Saded.... so i gotta go spend my time away...
gtg

2009-09-03T08:43:00.000-07:00

As usual went to school late..
After that went home to change, and went with wei lun to jp...
Went to eat at mac, and the cut in my mouth was damn fking painful when i eating the fries..
Thanks to Miss Ting Shuin..
Went play poolllllllllllllll...

2009-09-02T06:22:00.000-07:00

Woke up late today, so late for school also..
Form teacher text me, but i still took my own sweet time..
Went to clementi interchange around 8am, and bought breakfast,
eat at raynee's blog and smoke too... Heehehehs quality time..

Went school, sleep, skip class, and smoke..
Went to areana to play pool..
Lols.. till around 7plus..
Cabbed home..
Going with brothers and friends to study at jurong east library this whole weekend..
Jesmond having his N levels, so promise him that i will tutor him..
Actually i suck in studies also..
Zzz...
Nt attending this coming event at st james.
Jesmond have N until wednesday..
So... I think i will be happier studying with them then go clubbing and see something i dont feel like seeing..

You're delusional..
You're delusional..
I'm losing my mind..
WhooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

2009-08-31T13:18:00.000-07:00

I totally change my view about her..
I found i been lying to myself and time to wake up..
All i wanna say is, she dont really care about me.
She is not the one..

Chup chup, time to stop dreaming and come back reality..

2009-08-28T09:02:00.000-07:00

Lols.. I'm still here..
Zzz.. Police like to pend so much..
After 1month, my case still pending..
Today went to police station for nothing..

Went play pool with wei lun and hee kent at rc..
Then went to max tune with azinger, jesmond, jy, chinwee, terrance..
Hanxin and her friends were there too..
Play till 5 like that..
then bus-ed to parklane and carry to play max tune..
after that pool again..
went off at around 1030..
Saw adelaide in bus..
Lols..
Anyway, home sweet home..
Should i go for the club on monday??
and should i visit my primary school??
I think i should, i miss my pri.school friends and teachers..
Clubbing>? let see about that..
Trm going to bugis and sheesha..
Lols..
Pictures if taken then update trm barh..
I'm tired to writing.. nights

2009-08-26T04:39:00.001-07:00

Friday is coming..
Omg, i gonna see my charges..
If nothing happen to me, i gonna go sentosa(So not my idea)
Jianyang bdae coming, so gonna go sentosa...
Zzz..
Play play.. then celebrate..
Gonna Drink at sentosa..
Clubbing is coming..
Let see whether want so attend a not..
Gdbye for now.

2009-08-14T09:17:00.000-07:00

Today went to west coast plaza.. Wait for jesmond and jian yang, to finish their interview..At sushi tel..

Lols saw pauline and lynette.. hahahs..

Then take bus 7 with lun and jes to plaza sin for movie..

Where got ghost?

Laugh until i stomach ache... then went to eat buffet at suntec city..

Arhh... eat until stomach ache then...

Smoke Smoke, take pict.

2009-08-13T06:11:00.000-07:00

Guess what..
I going blog today, i scare i dont have the chance to blog again..
This whole week, i didnt attend school..
I'm very tired, and abit aimless..
I seriously dont know what i want..
HaisZz..
But nvm, because of something and somebody, this week basically went well..
Quite a long time since i felt this happy feeling lol:)

Alright, my time is up..
Trm is the day..
Whatever the results..
I already very happy:)
Wish myself luck.Hahashshshhs

2009-08-10T06:09:00.000-07:00

It had been very long since i blog..
Kinda of occupied this few weeks..
Anyway yesterday went to supper club at city hall.
Everything went quite smoothly except the queue..Which was freaking long..
Went down with jesmond, terrance and jian yang.
Chinwee came to look for us..
But he didnt went in, as his stead is right beside him..
The air-con not really working..
Its feel like sauna inside..
FunFun..
Went to mac at cityhall, with a few gals..
Chill till 6plus and cab home:)

Friday is the day, my clock stop moving..

2009-07-18T22:18:00.000-07:00

Clock is Ticking..
Time is Running out..
I Gotta go sooner or then...
I'm So Damn sorry..
But past is past..
Nothing gonna change for now.

2009-07-15T05:41:00.000-07:00

Time seems to moving quite slow.. Weekend seems so far..
I alr tired of going to school and and lost of motivation..
I want to study but just that the time is always not right..
School is kinda boring but i can see that the teachers trying their best to make us prepared!..
But is just not their fault..
Is mine!!..
Kinda of sorry...
Wish that the weekend will be fun..
Kinda tough week..
And i swear this is the final time i coming out to play.
Seems like lacking everything..
I final decided that i going to put a Uv tattoo On my neck.
-LSK-
Beloved aunty.

2009-07-10T06:00:00.000-07:00

Give a break for myself...
Today went zoom to till 3plus.
Then went to Kfc.. Quite ok..
Pool at irc till 5plus..
Crap.. i cant play well today..Sian..
Then went with hee kent to mrt station.. and slack at the basement..
Atw till 7plus..
And bus-ed home..

Going to buy books trm..
Hmmm..
At jurong east..
then maybe after go library??
I want study..
Maybe go windsor hotel again at night:)
See gt ppl jio me marh..
Need to hold meeting soon..
Gtg

2009-07-09T04:08:00.000-07:00

alright..
I here again..
School was quite ok, but seriously lesson is kinda boring..
The weekend is coming..I think of partying..
BUT think again.. O's coming..
I kinda make up my mind that i going to study..
Just that.. i waiting for the correct time..
I need ppl accompany to study..
But dont have:(
So.. Let just see''

2009-07-05T00:29:00.000-07:00

Zzz.. Just reach home..
From yesterday night..
My birthday party was not as crowded as i expected..
But still Crowded..
Was alot of fun yesterday..
thanks all my brothers..In the end, i was totally drunk..
as i kept being force to drink cup by cup..
Yesterday open 21jugs of beer
and martell..
As my bdae present..
I very happy..
hehehs.
Went to gekpok and eat.
and went to jesmond house ton. with alex, jarette..I fall
asleep at the sofa at around 4am and sleep till 7 plus..
then went safra to play lan..
hehehs..
Unplan but fun..
Ts can sing..
hahahs.. quite soft..

OKok..
Now rest.. Should i go to St james.?/?

2009-07-01T05:41:00.000-07:00

I dont know what happen..
Zzz..
Luck all gone i think..
Most suay of my life..
30/6/09-Phone lost..
Zzz..
Wtf.. It had been 3years plus plus since i lost a phone..
Damn..
Sit cab to beach road..
Then actually i check my pockets alr..
But go back the cab and carry nana.. So i think drop it there..
Phone gone nvm..
My contacts ahhhh...
Zzz...
Then today... Lost the new bike..
Zzz... the chain get cut.. Two chain leh..

Sua Sua..
Birthday party at pub.. so those who i invited i will contact u on that day or firday..
Wait until i get back my sim card..
and now i copy all the contacts on notebook..
Zzz
Feel like crap now

2009-06-24T23:02:00.000-07:00

Parents coming back in another few hours time.
Kinda of sad now.. I miss Her so much..
Wish that she didnt leave me all alone.
After a person pass away, where they go?
Can they come back??
She's Gone, I'm gone too...

LSK,
I miss U so much

2009-06-24T04:49:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to Jurong east..
Sit there till around 12Midnight.
Before that, went to play pool with hee kent, chinwee, reinie..
Lols
Suppose to be more people..
But last min ps..
So nvm.. we still have fun in the end!!
Play like crap.
Zzz but still got standard..
Cause just few day ago, went to macfer. hotel with andrew to play pool..
And Drink 4 Shots of tequila.. But still alright after that..
Yesterday went to hwi 's house and drink too..
I dont want to drink.. but the jia hui keep want me to accompany her to drink..
Kinda of high after that..
But alright..

I'm Sick now..
Got flu today..
Maybe cause i slept at 5am yesterday without clothes on?!!
Maybe..
Need to rest now..
Haiss..
Maybe trm parents coming back le..
And should i go for the st.james?
See whether hee kent going a not?
Most probably not..
hahahs
That all for now..
I'm sleepy alr..

2009-06-19T11:44:00.000-07:00

I'm super bored and lonely now..
So come here to cure my loneliness..
Haizz..
Went to Hwi house a few day ago..
Went i came down.. I saw charlene and kym jio they all..
Slack with them awhile..
and walk home-.-
Which is super far..............................

Today went west coast to meet chinwee and kent..
Cycle around and Zoom...
That all.
Kinda of lifeless..
I feel that something is lacking in my life again..
This feeling always make me feel irritated and unhappy..
I cant describe this Cb feeling to anyone..

Fk..
Alright,
Left in this fk house alone..
One person..
Zzz..
Wish that i can find somemore us dollars in my house:)
Trm meeting them again to cycle somewhere further..
Vivo i think???

I want go shopping soon..
Should i go butterfact????
I kinda of sick of clubbing..
I need ppl to accompany alr..
Feeling too lonely recently, and it 'aint GOOD!!
Sleepppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppin Right now.

2009-06-16T03:11:00.000-07:00

Is About to sunset soon..
And guess what.. I just woke up..
So tired..
I slept at 12 noon today..
Went to arena yesterday.
Was better then st james..

Just keeping dancing at the floor till 230.
Then went with 2gals. and chinwee and Jianyang
To Irc and play pool.
Cb hee kent..
Ps kia..
first one to always be gone..

Reach home at morning 7am..
then look at my parent leave the house and suppose to go to reinie house to slack..
Think again better not..
Cause her parent gone oversea, then there was other gals thereee:)
But i still can control..
And Went to sleeppppp:)

2009-06-15T02:10:00.000-07:00

Yoyooy..
Alone at home again..
Blasting music up..
Zzz..
Now..
Sian..
Later
Fun..

Got Clubbing..
ah leong come drive me up..
Yesterday auction one martell that cost 1680..
Cb waste of money..
Hahahs..
But we drink one box of beer then half of martelll..

Drunk leh..
hahas.Then ah leong drive me until macferson..
Then actually go chiong with them..
Hehehs..
But didnt.. Dont ps halim they all.
Cab home..
Gg.com.sg

2009-06-13T10:29:00.000-07:00

Heyhey..
Is Quite long since i blog..
Sorry ya..
Occupied almost everyday..
Today went to suntec i-t fair.. brought a thumbdrive..
And planning to disturb her but hahahs..Lazy...
Saw her face.. Seriously it was very funny..
Went to sarah's house as she wanted people to give her comment about her new clothes..
She is extremely sensitive about other ppl view about her..
A second thing that bring laughter..
Went for a hair cut..
and went home for dinner..

Is my father birthday..
Hahhass..
Is a bit boring..
Went back to jurong west..
Now i'm at jurong west waiting for hee kent to come my house..
Zzz..

That all for now..
Hee kent going for the 15June clubbing..
Hopefully i will go too..
But this time i insist drinking inside..
Damn.. I alr 19..
Hahahs..

2009-06-09T10:35:00.000-07:00

I so not going fall back in love again..
I want to control my feelings, but is hard..
No way no way..
Love only bring hurts..

I just cant be myself with her.. and why??
Anybody can give me some comments??
Thanks..
Love Suckkksssssssssss....
Damn itttttttt..
Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

2009-06-06T22:17:00.000-07:00

Yesterday:
Went to watch terminator salvation..........................................................................
Fun...........
Tonight party.......

2009-06-05T22:36:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was quite not excepted..
Went to vivo and find adelaide, joshua and firdhouse..
They wanted to go harry's to drink..
But because of joshua looks, they check our ic..
All of them cant pass.. So change to tpy..
Joshua went off and firdhouse too..
Went to call cab and went to tpy..
Ate mac.. And WeiFeng came to join..
And we book a room and sing sing abit.
Whereby adelaide never sing at all..
Drink a bit..
And take cab to adelaide house.. She drop off and went to find joshua which is at her house's bus stop...
Weifeng and me went to rc to play pool... Which both of us the play like shit..
As we drink a bit too much alcohol...
Then we stop and suppose to go holland and eat at swensens... but lazy so went prata to eat..
I drank redbull.. Slack Slack.. talk talk... And cab home..

Today i dont want to have meeting marh..
Hais.. trm will be another drinking day..

2009-06-04T06:09:00.001-07:00

At last there is sometime to blog awhile..
Busy week..
Always end school at 530..
But today didnt went to school..

Damn bored.. Looking forward to The weekends..
Sat drinking and Sun Drink again..
Cya

2009-05-30T21:18:00.000-07:00

Yesterday:

Lols done with the praying at around 2plus..
It was kinda fast..
After that went home and change..
After a while, Don call me to ride to farma hil to eat or something..
Take my jacket and went out..
Took a cab to his house which cost me 13dollars,
Went into his house and took one of his bike and ride to farma hill..
Went inside the winebar there and eat there..
Suppose to go after that.. then lazy so open wine and slack there..
One pack of cigg all gone again..
More amazing is the bill which cost 224dollars..
But nvm.. Really is good food man!!!

Ride to lot1 and Play the streetball at the arcade, and ride home...
Currently the bike still at my house..
Suppose today returning him..
But dont care la:x
Trm got O levels..
So i think for the time being just put at my house..
Later go ride a while..
Whoo!!!

Must go study chinese alr..
But i dont know how.???.
Pictures took.. Update ltr.

2009-05-29T20:08:00.000-07:00

Ok today is going to be busy day..
I going off soon to cementry..
Alot of them...
Must go around to pray..
Zzzz..

It should be tiring..
Today is a Saturday, And i Should be sleeping till noon..
But now..
Zzz i being awake by my parents at 10 plus..
So tired la..
Today i whole day should nt be free anymore..
And Trm i think i going to cancel my tattoo session..
As chinese O on monday..
Trm should be staying at home to study:)

On monday my parent will come to take my report book..
Which i think i will stuck at home for awhile..
And Gamble....
Wowowooww
Cya

2009-05-23T21:48:00.000-07:00

As What Xinyi Say...
Yes i Went drinking yesterday..
But i didnt get wasted...

What is life without drinking!!
Lols..
Yesterday went down tpy at around 8plus..
Zzz..
Actually was suppose to go with Wf and halim to Cine and catch a movie...
But I didnt Go..
I also Dont know why..
I promise them next week i coming out atw..
But my next week results coming out and my O level Chinese is on next monday..
So i dont think i coming out till late alr..
I still need to study..
Cant play play For O level Papers..

So just wait for me Bro..
After the paper..
Party atw

2009-05-21T05:33:00.000-07:00

Seriously I getting very stressful..
O-level Chinese in 1/6/2009..
Is like only a week more, but i havent prepare yet...
I almost Got Back all my results:
Math:50
English:51
Chinese:Fail
Lit&Ss:50
Bio:50
Dnt:I think i Going to fail As 70% is from folio that i just lost it..
Combine Science:Getting Trm..

7Subjects
2Fail Currently..
4Boarder line..
1Havent get bak..

How Am I Going to Tell My Parents:(
???Confused..

I think i nt going out for some time.. Or nt parent sure nag..
Dont have things to shoot them back..

She is going to Clubbing for her first time...Zzz.
I scare she get taken advantage by other boys..
But she going with her group of friend so i ps to tag along..
Hope her friends look after her...
Keeping a eye on her just incase:) If can see her la... IF not then too bad

2009-05-20T05:24:00.000-07:00

You said this could only get better.
There's no rush, 'cause we have each other.
You said this would last forever,
But now i doubt if i was your only lover.

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same.
'Cause i'm not over you

How can i miss you if you never would stay?
If you need time i guess I'll go away.
Inside me now there's only heartache and pain!

Not loving you is harder then you know...

This is seriously what i thinking right now..

2009-05-18T05:15:00.000-07:00

Just hit home..
Cc again..
Hahahs...

Went zoom after exams..
Play until around 3and went to gym until around 4
Then play at devest for awhile then cc...

Trm there's no school.. Marking Day
Woww..
But happy moments always end fast...
Results coming back on wednesday when things really get very bad for me..
My math teacher told me that only 3person pass math..
It's So pathetic..
I'm worried..
Math as my most confident subject to pass..
Now hanging on the thread...
I dont even dare think about other subjects, i think i really need to stop slacking..

Recently i getting very impatient and aggressive to somethings..
Hope that it will end soon...

Trm going out to vivo, i think...
Catch the movie fireball with hee kent and hopefully some other ppl...
Thats all for now...

Party at st james.. Party for above 16..
Intersted Just link to hee kent and tell him...
Byes.

2009-05-14T05:27:00.000-07:00

I'm Very tired now..
Play basketball from 12noon till 7pm..

Today chem was confusing..
i Dont know Hw to do as i didnt study for mid-year..
I think i going to flung all my subjects..
Now i just wish that all will pass is enough for me...

My life is without a target now..
everything seems like worthless..
Pls save me..

I know O level is coming but i just dont have the motivation to study..
Its really suxs big time..

Ppl always argue with me..
Dont even understand me...
everything seems so wrong now..
My guardian angel is gone now..

Tattoo session Pictures: Thanks to xinyi

2009-05-08T22:33:00.000-07:00

Woke up kinda strange today..
I woke in middle of night..
2am..

See soccer results awhile and went to sleep...
It was tiring..
But still i woke up around 11plus..

Nth to do so blog lor..
Waiting for my soccer to start at 3 leh..
Then around 4 go find weinan and buy ring..

I did a amazing thing..
I took out my septum but manage to fit it back in..
Which take me a very long time..
and kind of painful..

Listen To 'Usher Whats A Man To Do"
Its Match my Feeling now..

2009-05-08T05:46:00.001-07:00

Yesterday was a very suay day..
I cycle with hee kent and chin wee.. to school in the morning..
then i punctuate the tire.
then after school cycle another bike punctuate again..

Zzzz...
2 bikes gone in one day..

My hair was caught by tham today..
Must cut by Tuesday leh..
But i just a few days ago leh..
Zzz pathetic...

Anyway nt going to cut..
This sunday wei nan say sunday..
Means sunday i will be sitting at queensway shopping centre for a long time..

Tired went to gym and then went basketball at Clementi cc til around 6plus..
Then now home sweet home..

Nt planning to go this weekend..
See lorrr...
Must study..............................
................
...................
..................
..............
Soccer..hahhas..
Wish i win..

Byes..
Now is abit emo...

And shit my septum found out by my mum..
But she didnt say anything..
Going to buy ring trm..
See ya

2009-05-04T02:26:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was abit strange...
Zzzz...
Didn't expect both to come but nvm both of they came..
Lols..

The tattoo session frm 2 become 4 lols..
Wei nan still blame me..
But anyway still carry on all the way to 8plus..
My chest still aching..

Oh ppl... yesterday i did something really stupid..
Both of the gals when home...
Xinyi want go home study if i nt wrong when i call her, she is watching tv.. So hardworking eh...
Another gal went home cause of family problems..

Left with me.. kinda lonely..
But anyways thanks to wei nan to fulfilled with stupid thoughts..
Chester was cutting his hair inside the shop..
he look kinda of young now...
i was a bit bored so carried wei nan baby to play awhile..
then ask wei nan help me pierce my septum..
Which i have no idea why he will help me..

So i got a free septum piercing
Zzz..
Nt pain at all..
just that u are full of emotion went it go through..
U can hear the bone sound...

Anways that all for the update..
today didnt went school again...
trm mye starts..
So must study last min now..
Byeeee.......

2009-05-02T01:32:00.000-07:00

Suddenly feel like saying this ..

Do I remind you of the pain
that he put you through?
Is that the reason i'm to blame
before i do it?
Is it because he treated you badly,
Protecting yourself from somebody else
I'm not who's hurting you,girl...
I will never do that..

I'll do anything to prove i love you
Baby girl,but refuse to pay for something i didn't do
I love you,girl,but i refuse to stay
Paying for his mistakes....

I'm still sitting at home since this morning,
Thinking what i really did wrong...
I'm Selfish??

Going out soon...
around 6 plus i think....
Today i going get drunk again...
Partying is only way to forget her..
And Guys Soccer Betting is a waste of time, In the end u still will lose

2009-05-01T10:42:00.000-07:00

4plus went meet Xinyi at vivio..
Was abit very stupid as i came frm queensway to vivo to meet them,
and i havent walk into the shopping centre then they say want to queensway...

Waste of time, but anyway its alright..
Went to queensway, walk to primitive a while..
Too many ppl.. cant slack there.. say bye to wei nan and went to mac..
Sit there for awhile..
Some sudden problems just pop out and i busy answering call..
And xinyi keep taking pictures....

Credit:Xinyi(Photographer)
Quite a excellent one..
Pictures are stolen frm her.. hahas..

Alr that all for now..
This sunday there is more..
Tattooo.....
Trm drinking...
So excited..

The Feeling Of Ectasy inside my body

2009-04-29T21:54:00.000-07:00

Time flying before i can open my eyes..
This week i didnt go school..
Time seems to pass very fast..
Today alr thursday..

Another 5days.. then my Examination official start..
But i'm here struggling with my studies as i found out i was lagging behind..
The fact is that i nt really worried and still thinking where to go and play...

Is there something wrong with me??
My O's is this year but i'm still slack..

Anyway i hope i will do well..
Wishing all my friends too..

Saturday is coming in 48hrs..
Party going to start in 48hrs..
I'm ready for partying
Are U?

2009-04-28T06:15:00.000-07:00

Today i nt in school...
Dont know whether gt ppl miss me mah:x
Lols...

Woke up at around 5am plus..
Look at the soccer results..
I lost 150Dollars la..

Zzz..
Nightmare the whole day..
My money pls come bak..
Hahhas..

Nahs.. Nvm barh..
I study from 12noon till around 3pm..
Almost done with mine phyics only left with few chapters
Trm will finish it up then go on to chem(Which i will Die)

Anyway went to library meet up with some brothers.. and went to tiong..
I alr like planning this sat..
Arrwww...
Mye is on next week and i'm studying now...
Wish is nt too late...

It has been months since i went to devest..
Nver see her for quite long lo..
But nvm, just see lor....

Trm nt going school again..
I will be home alone again...
My cigg has finished le..
Trm need to buy again..

Pls dont smoke if u are nt a smoker: Or else u Will BE SORRYYYYYYYYYYYYyy

Trm uploading some pictures that xinyi took during bio class...
Zzzzz....

2009-04-25T21:59:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to tpy the ktv pub to drink..
Ordered 8bottles of beer..

Play pool with joshua..
1-1

Yesterday was fun..
Its is only sad as some other brothers cant make it...
Partying is the best..
Went 75 drink somemore.

Until i vomited....
Then went home...

The sat will be celebrating mother'S day..
Going 75 i opening i box..
So as halim and wf and jes..
JAcky also must open..

Then Disco Disco...
.....

My exams coming..
I studying the whole weekdays...
Nt going out alr..

2009-04-23T20:47:00.000-07:00

I just woke up..
Now i am blogging again..
OH yesterday was quite a fun night...
went to settle tai ji at commonwealth... I was a bit in bad mood...
Actually i went to sleep alr..
Then Jarrette call me..
So i went down lor..

Zzz..
reach there..
around few minutes... the police came..
Zzz
i was smoking leh.
So the police ask my age then i say 19..
Lols..
I was super gl yesterday...
I even smoke another cigg at the police face..

then went home..
Later 1245..
We are going again to their school and settle..
So maybe later will be chaos again..
I think around 20plus to 30going down...
If nt wrong...

Nah..
Oh ya i didnt went school today..
And my parents allow..
Wowowowow.. so as the whole next week

2009-04-22T07:08:00.000-07:00

Today went school..
Then gt 0-level spa.. At the afternoon..
Hahahs..

Abit tired then..
Went home to change and went to library..
until around 9.
Went eat a bit and went home..

Trm is thursday alr. pE happens to be trm..
And it will be quite fun..
then go somewhere...
Friday will be a playing day...
so will be sat... Mz birthdae........

2009-04-19T07:39:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to sheesha again..
With Around 12 person...
Didnt take pictures... Cause there was very hot..
Dont Really have the mood...
Went home at 11 something...
As i was tired and today i need wake up early for the cementry thing..
Halim and weifeng went to cine to watch movie i think..
Sorry bro.. didnt mean to ps u all..

Today woke up at 930..
Then broad a bus that my parent booked..
Went pray here and pray there...

Reach home around 4.. then bath and went out to meet cousins..
Then lan till now.. and cab home..

I need to settle down and study..
But i dont know why i just cant..
That is very sad... I lagging very far behind..
Trm i think my parents will be called up as my hw didnt pass up for 1month.. and if my test fail
.. my teachers will be meeting my parents..
I'm quite stress out...
Anyway still trying to get over it..
Waiting for the weekends.. going tpy to celebrate somebodys birthdae...Maybe gt gals there.. lols kidding..

19April
About birthday...
Somebody's birthday happens to be today...
Wishing all her wishes to come through..
And may luck be with her...
Still owe her presents which she dont wan to accept..
Which i dont know why..

2009-04-15T02:33:00.000-07:00

i look like idiot in all these picts..
my phone is with her.. So...
Here is jarrette..
I'm trying to act cute here.
Form teacher here... Xinyi took it
I waiting days to open up this to drink...

Today went school same same lor..
Late again...
Sleppy leh...

that all.
Xinyi the pict. Has been pose liao..
So here it is...

This sat go sheesha...
Too many ppl going..
Around 10plus again...

Byes,
Waiting for sat,
And Play play play...

2009-04-13T04:51:00.000-07:00

Today went school late...
Zzz..
Nth special..
Went to tiong..
then meet with
alot of ppl..

12April

2009-04-11T21:32:00.000-07:00

First time sheesha for them..
We all have Fun...
I the camera Man here... So There is no Photo of mine..
Hahhas..

Meet at tiong then went bugis, they eat at hawker centre...
and me and wei feng went starbucks...

After that sheesha...until 11 plus..
then went holland slack till 3 then cine all the way,..

Later 2 going to have my tattoo..
meeting xinyi and hee kent

2009-04-04T21:28:00.000-07:00

Yesterday at vivo..

yups.. went there aound4
wait for some brothers..
then
waited for xinyi..
meet her for one cigg time..

then jesmond came..
juan kit...
kiat liang
joshua...
samuel.. and wei shen(birthday boy)

Erm then arcade a while..
eat long john..

then hao ran and ming zhou came with 2gals(which i forgotten the name)
And another 4gals came..
So total yesterday i went out with 14people..
Lols..

Okay then send aroun 90plus at tpy k box..
then together went to find ah hwi...

which drink until i high... but still can control..
:)

then some went home..
and i jes halim shi min charlene wei shen and another unknown guy...
went cine..
hit there at 3am.
then brought fast and furious..
at 4pm..
so went to starbucks and drink coffee..

after movie went mac.. for breakfast, and home sweet home...

XINYI NVER PICK UP MY CALL...
ZZZZZ
THEN I GOING TO QUEENSWAY MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!
TIRED, I STILL HAVENT SLEEP YET... I CANNOT TAKE IT SOON...

2009-04-03T21:01:00.000-07:00

Woke up liao..
Cant sleep well...

Going to vivo soon..

2009-04-03T00:33:00.000-07:00

Should be heading to queensway for septum..
But wei nan say the boss is there,,
So it will be 60.. So either go there later when the boss is not there...
Or on sunday barh..

Zzzz meeting on 730...
Tonight going to xinyi house to drink..
I have no night events later..
So..
Just drinking only so..

trm going vivo celebrate wei shen birthday..
so tonight if i nt too drunk..
i will be going home..
If drunk then slepp at xinyi house...

trm she say she going to vivo also..
So..
yups,,, Why i keeping seeing her..
Lols..

Finals Coming..

Like I really want you
I think I need you
Maybe I miss you
I’m thinking of you

Hahas i just reach home...
hahahs it is abt 1plus..
Went to meet halim..
Since so long nver see him alr..

Then went o ah hwi house..
headed to holland to meet all my brothers..
plan with them abt trm vivo things...
Must dress formal as the b'day boy wish..

so after that cab to tpy..
meet up with ah hwi they all..
Actually i dont wan to go xinyi house de..
cause i was tired..
then halim wanted to go so..
i called xinyi but she nt going home..
Didnt put too much hope on that..

So left at 11 plus..
went to holland for coffee at coffeebean..
i getting my life bak.. at last..
Night life is coming bak..
All thanks to halim..
I returning to my normal self..

Then cab home..
Trm night meeting halim, going to ton at cine..
So live to the max and play to the max...
Fuck the real love la horr...

You must be a comedian,
this must be your stand up routine,
Girl i can't take you serious,
Did you think you were getting off... that easy,
When your body's calling me, like a moth to the flame
And i can tell that you're wanting me, and shorty i feel the same
So you ain't going nowhere

2009-04-02T02:46:00.000-07:00

Beep Beep Oh Look Now There Goes My Phone
And Once Again I'm Just Hopin' It's A Text From you
It Ain't Right I read your Messages twice thrice four times A Night
Everyday I Patiently Wait
Feelin' Like A Fool But I Do Anyway
Nothin' Can Feel As Sweet & As Real
As Knowin' I Wasn't Waitin' In Vain
And Maybe It's True, I'm caught Up On you
Maybe There's A Chance That you're Stuck On Me too
So Maybe I'm wrong, It's all In My Head
I'm Always Connected Online
Hooked On Facebook All The Time
Hopin' you've Checked My Profile
Just can't help wonderin' why
You play it cool
Cause i'm hopelessly fallin' for you

It means alot...

So trm dont really dont know going where

2009-04-01T03:57:00.000-07:00

Yup yup... today i went to schooll..
Nt bad leh..
Quite slack today..
Mr wan fool us bring pe pants or not fine..
But today no pe..
So that the april fool..
almost whole class been tricked..
We are so happy gt pe la..

Hais, nvm trm pe..
Why gt so many people complaining abt my blog no pictures..
Zzz.. u think i so bo liao everyday take picture myself and post it..

Nvm this Sat and sunday will be full of pictures..
Sat going out with all my holland brothers..
So around 10plus to 20 barh..

So...
Will be alot of group pictures.
And Wan suay..
Going out with brothers will be best.. Nth to stress abt..
Yeah!!!

Nite going out with halim bro..
Woww.. It has been long since i see him..
Ton at cine..
Stomp Stomp whole night..
SkJ must join along too..

Then sunday the inked session at queensway...
Will be another 6hrs..
Zzz...
Will be sian..
But heng xinyi coming to pei me to waste time..
Sooo.... i waiting..

Should i do septum this Sunday??
Comment pls!!!..

Hahahs has hit finals..
So nth to worry abt..
Panda captain leisss...

2009-03-31T03:53:00.000-07:00

HellosS...
Blah.. today is nonsense day..
Didnt go school..
Stay at jacky house..
Till 1230 then went home change..
Zzz.. but here there is 220pm..
Which the match had end..
But i was a bit pissed then..
But in the end also happy..
Lame...

Went take mrt to jurong east.. and bak hm..
Fking lame..
Then play ball..
then i was scolded by my parents again...
cause of nver go school..

i going crazy...
Now i will break my promise...
And smoke during weekdays..
Currently after blogging.. i going a pack of cigg..

and go clementi and meet jesmond then go to 349 chinese garden...
yupss..
i cant stay at home..

So today i get scolded for nthing as i didnt watch the match either..
Hw stupid..
And there scolding i cant take it..
So bye fkers.. that keep scolding..

The only thing was nt bad was..
Won the match..

If tonight i dont blog means..
I nt going home..
And nt going school trm..
So...

2009-03-30T05:21:00.000-07:00

Nah today went school..
Same Same....
Trm nt going school..
Hahhas...

Fk mine teachers really think that i pon school on every tuesday laa...
Zzzz
Actually suppose to queensway..
Went hm.. then lazy..

As wat xinyi say"my blog is boring, no pictures.."
So i will update picture..

Pictures Taken on Sat, Taken By chester Or sam..

I have no idea when the pict is taken...

2009-03-29T05:18:00.000-07:00

Wake up today around 11plus..
I think the only days i can really sleep is weekend lahh..
But sure gt things force me to wake up earlier lah..
Planned to sleep till around 2..

Nahh...
Went to Bukit timah today...
Meet with my cousins...
Hahahs..

Went to irc to play lan and pool from 1 to 6 lahhh.
Time fly la...
Then went mac to eat...

Thn reach home which suddenly i become emo again..
recently i have alot of thinking going inside my brain...
Really wan to play only..
until i settle with that thinking..

Going crazy soon...
Meeting halim next sat..
Most of time, should be going to cine or disco...
At last get to meet him....

Sunday will be the tattoo again..
I thinking of peircing septum this week...
Wishing weekend come soon..
Wish that she win the coming match..
She putting alot of effort..
So pls god dont make her effort wasted....

2009-03-28T08:13:00.000-07:00

Today wake up at 12..
Went for the queensway for inked..

Reach there 2..
Saw bai rong..
Zzz

Then inked for 6 hrs..
Then xinyi heekent came awhile..
Then went to city hall

Suppose to meet them..
But the inked session ends at 8plus..
Went hm after that...

Hahhas wei nan say he help me pierce septum for 30 at shop..
Outside shop 20dollars..

And my tattoo frm 600 to 400...
369 wan suay..
All same brother..

okay,, make friends with almost alll..
THEN a gal came..
Full of piercing..
Look 19 but only 15 lahhh..

ltr alot of gals came in for piercing...
I gt the permission to slack there all i wan..
lols...

After its done, i will post the picture..

2009-03-27T04:39:00.000-07:00

As usual went school today..
Was super tired..
First period alr, phone confiscated,

Zzzz....
Then Dnt teacher call mine parents...
Haiszz..
Boring shitt...

I dont care..
Went home straight after school..
Napped..
Then my parents talk to me..

I have no idea...
I suddenly lose my goals...
No more aim...
Aimless life..
I wish can recover it soon...
Reason for being like this: Lets keep it a secret,

Then sit infront of tv till now...
Trm going out with xinyi they all...

Thats all la...
Dont feel like blogging..

Today the meeting not at holland..
I meeting them at tiong bahru...
later...

OH reach tiong at 8 plus..
Went to smoking corner..
After 5days of nt smoking any cigg..
I smoked again..
Zzz.. cutting down..
But still nid it.. so stress recently..

Then wei shen come down to find me.. with one which i no idea wat's her name..
(but kinda pretty)
Still!!! nt interested...

Then went up to cinema. then find haoran and ming zhou...
With acs gal and gan eng seng gal..
ACS nt a schooll....
it represent Siao..

ACS gal cute but ah lian..
Same thing still nt interested..
Slack while at arcade then go smoking corner again..
Slack there till 10 then go hm..

CIGG. i smoke today.. Is 7sticks...
Zzz kinda alot..
i go out for 2 hrs only la..

Return hm then my bro say my parent talking abt me..
I dont care either...

Then went play basketball till 12..
then went hm bath..
nw blogging..

Final decesion getting inked trm..
1.30pm..

Then sheesha...
At last can relax myself and think abt anything...

I just dont feel like studying no more..
There aint goals

2009-03-26T03:34:00.000-07:00

Today went school...
Pe,,
Basketball...
Win!!

Then recess eaten something i nver eat be4...
Laksa...
???
Then went for basic..
Then lit... Talking to hee kent all the way...Haizzz..
Was a bit tired..

>............
.........
...Win leh...(Shouldnt say.. lols..)

Basketball in school after than...
So So...
A bit tired...
Then go ulu cc..
To play basketball...
And1 a lot leh...

Nt that pro yet.. still wan train...
..................
Went home at around 6plus..
Then like that lor...

Trm gt meeting at holland...
Hahahs... get to see my brothers...
Nt going out trm night... i hope..
Cause trm i dont feel like going out...
After meeting i wan go home le..
OR maybe go find ah hwi house...
Slack awhile...

Saturday, xinyi decided to go sheesha...
So sheesha barh around 6plus..
Early on, i going get inked..
and watching movie with her, and hee kent:)
See wat shows... If they watch mall cop then i not joining them...,
After then join them lor...

Waiting for that day.

2009-03-25T07:28:00.000-07:00

Today school boring... Zzz
Common test Results bak..
A1
A1
B3
C6
C6
D7
D7

HaiZzzzzzz...
Then focus till 3plus... Then went to west coast cc...
Play bb a while..
Then jesmond left first because of pei someone..
Then rain after a while..
So i go home..
Then gabriel they all went to west coast plaza...
but i didnt..

Supposely there training today
but rain didnt come out..
At this time still here using com..

Trm nver bring hw then fine..
So dont know whether wan go mah...

Watching her match at Sunday...
Dont know whether see will win mah??
Can trust her...
Her shooting so tyco..
always In de..

Sat, Maybe following kent, xinyi to sheesha or esplande(I dont know how Spell)
but at night...
In the afternoon.. they following me to get inked..
Yups getting another new tattoo..

2009-03-24T04:03:00.000-07:00

In the end today didnt go schooll..
Went to devest play basketball from 7plus to 9 plus..

Then go jacky house
Watch dragonball at his house..
then return hm at 12plus then bath, change...
Go to watch her match....
Almost win lahhhhh...
Arh....
23-25 leh...

Be4 i enter the school..
a guy bang on me... i look at him then i go into the school and watch her match...
after the match when i come out..
Around 10guys come find then call me go to the blocks,,,
Then went to the blocks..

I 1 person then they call 10..
Their wrong still..
Get slapped on the face and hit...
Get bao la..

I was serious damn angry.. And i was holding i green tea can which is torn into a sharp edges...
i Feel like slashing him lah...
When he hit me on the face..
Cb'kia but cant do it lah...
Behind the people was holding a knife and umbrealla...
If slash i sure die or go boy home...
I cant.. nt that i scare to die or go in..
If like that, hw the hell i see her anymore...

Arhhh,,,,
369 ginnan head leh... Hw can like me...
I think i damn disgrace...........
Gt nothing to say abt myself...
Total disappointment in myself...
Now wei le her, Dont dare choing anymore...

Last time dare to choing and die.. Cause i think my life is alr over..
I alr play and enjoy my life..
That why i gt the guts..
My now i found my goal, nt scare to die, but scare nt to see her again..